Lately I've been feeling...disconnected. Disconnected from just about everyone and everything. Through therapy I've learned to set boundaries with family, friends, work and even myself. Boundaries are good for me but difficult for others to understand. Let's stay I've stepped out for a minute. I just didn't let folks know I left the room.
I just don't know if I want to come back.....
As an extrovert, I'm finding it increasingly harder to socialize and engage with others. I spend most of my work day engaging with employees, customers, vendors, co-workers via in person, email or phone. I'm a one-woman team in a large office with another co-worker in an adjacent office. We're separated by walls and glass. I struggle through my work days with an iPod and mini Bose blaring at my desk to keep me sane!
I'm starting to enjoy it.
I used to be active in my sorority. I was leading committees, attending meetings and helped plan functions. I had an outlet for some skills and creativity I couldn't effectively use elsewhere. I learned to appreciate the power of women like me.
Once my world started crumbling, I walked away from it. I haven't looked back.
I come from a large extended family. Family reunions are scheduled all summer long. Family traditions fill most holidays. Like most families in America, mine is dysfunctional at best.
I can no longer deal with the drama.
I'm a social media junkie...Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest...etc. I love connecting and reconnecting with people. It's like a drug...! How many hits! Keeping track of family and friends is easier than ever. I don't have to call or text, just scroll with my finger.
I'm waning. I don't talk on the phone much. I may miss text messages. I wish I had unlimited data...not minutes. I live in the heart of the city near the parks, clubs, restaurants, transportation hub even a fire station, but my home is so peaceful and quiet.
I'm seeking out new experiences alone. I easily walk away when I've had enough. I respect my own boundaries. I feel energized when I have my downtime. Don't take it personal. It's not personally, yours. It's my journey.
My metamorphosis is underway. I decided to take a left turn.
#MyMetamorphosis #PersonallyMine #LeftTurn
Happy New Year! I made it through 2014. What a blessing to see 2015! I'm looking forward to a new year and all the I'mPossibilities headed my way. However, unlike millions of other people, I have no resolutions for 2015. I'm learning to be appreciative of the challenges in life that move me to the happiest moments in my life. Sounds a little strange, I know. Let me explain.
I'm looking forward to my blessings in disguise.
2014 brought just as many challenges, heartache and brokenness as 2013. The difference is that God has shown me the blessing in each of my storms. I either learned to push myself harder or slow down. I realized that complaining and whining only made my situation worse. He showed me how to dance and smile in the rain. I made some very difficult decisions and today I'm better for it. He stretched me. The more He stretched the more resilient I became. I bounced back in my own way and not what others had prescribed for me. For each storm something was washed away.
So, I consider my storms blessings in disguise. In 2015, I'm stronger. I'm more confident. I'm happier. Everyday I create a new life imprint, work towards a dream or as my youngest son reminds "just be."
I created a "Blessing Jar" to collect handwritten notes, photos or anything I consider a blessing. So far we have photos, a prayer and a significant event in our jar. It's all a blessing.
Here's our jar! It's nothing spectacular but it's special. It's prominently displayed in our home. The reverse side reads, "God is Good." We walk by it daily as a reminder to be grateful for all things in life and knowing who truly blesses us.
I challenge you to break tradition in 2015! Do something new! Dare to be different or adventurous! Create some memories! Be a blessing in disguise!
#NoResolutions #DoSomethingNew #BeABlessingInDisguise
